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I started this blog 4 years ago. FOUR. WHOLE. YEARS. I can't even believe it. So much has happened....Lord knows....so much has happened. I started this blog as a way to stay in touch with my friends as they moved to different states. I clung to this blog for a few years. It was a necessity. It was a place to spill my thoughts as I navigated that space where I felt like my friends' lives were just beginning and mine was stagnant. In hindsight, I realize my life was the one that was just beginning. Oh what a wonderful revelation. Now four years later, I don't think about this blog much. When I do think about it, I think about my time in undergrad and the life that I had there. Fond memories.
I'm embarking on a new journey of my own. A new city with new people. It's been an interesting ride to say the least.
As always, I feel like I'm on the cusp of something great ;-)

Bae: Where you be?

During the last few months, many of my friends have entered into serious relationships with their significant others. Parents have been met. Social media has been informed. Co-habitation is occurring. I'm so happy for those involved. However, there's this small voice that I hear on a occasion. She says "I sometimes wonder when my moment for love is going to happen." Where's that guy who thinks the sun rises and sets in my brown eyes? Where's that guy who wants to spend his time with me? Have I met him already? I just wonder when my romantic life is going to begin.

this and that and then some

It's been two months since I cut my relaxed ends off. Although I absolutely love my natural hair, I sometimes miss my perm. Especially when I see a girl with a fresh perm and laid edges. There is nothing like the feeling of my hair blowing in the wind after getting a perm. I'm one box perm away! I kid, I kid. What I don't appreciate about "being natural" are the character traits that people have attached to a woman who rocks her natural hair. I'm not an afro-centric bohemian chic. Going natural wasn't my path in getting to know myself. I didn't have some epiphany about who I am. I am not discounting those who did have those experiences. However, that wasn't my truth. If anything, I was a girl that clung to her perm until I got bored with my hair.  The natural experience isn't monolithic. I completely annoyed at the "she's not natural if she color's her hair" You can't be serious??!?! SO because I colored my hair, am I relaxed again??! I just don't get it.

Need I remind you all I saw Beyonce live in concert. Beyonce and I were in the same room. We all know I love me some Beyonce. But who I'm really here for is miss Blue Ivy Carter. She always looks so unimpressed and it makes my heart smile. Its a look I'm determined to master. The concert was amazing! There are a few of my friends who aren't fans of Bey. Needless to say, our friendships are on the line. I think that I connect with her music at every stage. I am able to somehow relate to her music. I can't really put it into words. I can listen to her music and my mood changes instantly. She really is G.O.A.T ;-)

I was talking to my friend last night about how much time has passed since we graduated from undergrad. It's amazing to see how far we've come. Its crazy to think about the people who were in my life 3-4 years ago who aren't there anymore. Who would've thought I would be living in a different city?

“I will spend more time with myself in this lifetime than anyone else. Let me learn to be the kind of person I would like to have as a friend. Courage to Change: One Day at a Time

connected.

"ive learned to say "no". I can't be everything to everyone else if I am nothing to myself"- Alex Elle

This is what I channel everyday. Everyday, B.

random update ;)

• I have officially completed my first year of pharmacy school. I'm eating and sleeping like a person who doesn't have to study or go to class until late August. This colored girl may have not made Dean's List but she did get A's and B's!!  At this point in life there is no greater feeling. Its to the point where phone calls from friends have become interruptions to my laziness. Seriously. I sleep, eat, and then go back to sleep again. Sometimes I go to work. My laziness is at an all time high.

• My 25th birthday came and went. It's hard to celebrate when you have exams to study for. But with that said, 25 feels great! Feeling so sure about myself and the decisions that I've made, hello twenty-five! I've spent much of my twenties getting to know myself (that's a never ending journey) and at 25 I'm feeling pretty good about that! I had a friend of mine tell me she wishes she was more sure of herself like me. That really touched me! She just turned 21. In true "I'm getting older" fashion I said something to the effect of "that is a confidence that comes with experience." I'm dropping wisdom at 25. LOL

• To date, I've lost about 15 pounds. The fact that I was a cupcake away from 200 pounds. NO MA'AM. The weight loss/body transformation is far from over. But losing the weight was such a great experience because I finally stepped up and really stuck to my fitness goals. The good eating habits I developed kind of stalled because of finals (well life kind of stalls when finals week comes!) but starting tomorrow I'm back on this work out track. Beyonce is coming in July. Her She Me must look amazing!

• I've been transitioning for about 9 months. I wanted to make it to the 12th month mark! But these two textures aint it. So I'm seriously considering cutting these relaxed ends off this month! We shall see. 

• I was voted to be the next president of the chapter of a national pharmaceutical organization! Mama I made it. I'm sooooo excited about this.

• I'm  going to be pharmacy intern at Target for a month (FOR FREE). Experience is priceless. Whoever said that, never saw my bank account lol. But I work for CVS now too. #balance My boss is a Beyonce fan. So there's that!
• I'm legitimately heartbroken that Scandal is over until August/September. Shonda, girl, what is I'm gon do??!?!?!?

Life is good. No complaints. ;-)

much to say...

much to say.
little time to write.
Turning 25 in a few weeks
Finals are right after that.
Life slows down for no one.