Girl Talk

I have been feeling a type of way for quite some time. I'm not sure if it's the lack of sleep, the lack of free time, or the lack of hot water ((my apartment complex and the city are oppressing me by shutting my hot water off in order to fix a pipe....ugh)). Anyway, some day's I feel mushy, cutesy, hormonal, and 16. Yes 16....all smiley with my stomach in a knot when I had a crush. Fast forward six years and here I am. All smiley and giggly when I talk about him. Other days, I'm jaded, trying to figure out my life academically and personally. There never seems to be enough time to quite come up with a solution.

"Oh, these roaring twenties. I have some wonderful and beautiful newness in a few places in my life, so I promise you that complaining is not all that I have to do. I just got the blues today. Holler if you hear me."

I posted this quote a few days ago and in this very moment it still applies. But I digress, some days are better than others. I'm not saying today was a bad day. Today was just another that I'm blessed to have :)

**I want more. In order to do that I have to demand more. But what if what I want doesn't want me?! This a question that I'm not emotionally equipped to answer right now. Why, you ask?! Truthfully I don't want to deal with it. Because delving into that means delving into other things that were done and said on that one day. To put it simply I don't have to do. I want to stay here where everything is fluffy, pink, and sweet :) Maybe tomorrow. But not tonight.

The truth is the light but sometimes ignorance really is bliss ((shrug))