We Just Kickin It

Men only play with the hearts of women who allow it. Titles matter. If he don’t care to make it official then move on.---From a Man’s Perspective: Relationships & Titles

After reading the rest of that article I felt compelled to write.(I realize that what is written has strayed from this quote. I didn't say this was going to make sense. Lol) Why?! Well....you'd be surprised how much self reflection

can happen while waiting for the bus. Anyway, I realized I have become good at the non-relationship; expecting little, giving little. A text here or there. Seeing them whenever I wanted to be bothered. If I could describe these relationships in one word: nonchalant. Our feelings tucked safely away, for our eyes only. Because actually giving me a reason as to why you hang out with me would be breaking the unspoken rules that were carefully crafted. Tripping over strings that weren't supposed to be there in the 1st place

I think I'm sick of sidestepping and tiptoeing around those rules. I'm not completely sure though because once I denounce the rules what guidelines am I supposed to follow?! There is no play book. ((sigh)) Apparently I gotta make some rules of my own. You would think that these rules would be easier to stick to since I made them. But rules are meant to be broken. (or @ least that is what I tell myself when I'm

knee deep in my nonrelationships.)

I wonder is it me or them (the guys)?! Are these NR of my own doing or do I innocently fall into them? As much as I would love to say I have no part, I would be remiss to not add that sometimes a NR is the intention. Nothing more. nothing less.

But as I waited for the bus, I realized that I'm sick of less and I want more. I want dates and titles. I want strings.

I want to answer this question differently:

Bestie: Soo what are two doing?!

Me:We're dating :) [[i realize that "dating" can be as ambiguous as "we're getting to know each other"...baby steps people.]]

I guess in the end I want something different.

There's nothing wrong with NR, they are fun and flirty. #beentheredonethat

On to the next.

So about this new guy.....

I'm not saying that in the end he will be my boyfriend but as Beyonce so eloquently put it

Come harder, this won't be easy

:) he's gotta come with something different. Dates will be had (food and most importantly witnesses Lol.) I have to give him a chance to prove himself worthy of said change and prove to myself that I'm capable. #nopressure.

Rome wasn't built in the day.