Laughter is the best medicine

I had the pleasure of seeing Kevin Hart tonight :) That man is hilarious! It has been a rough quarter to say the least and those laughs were wonderful. Because it was a campus wide event, I saw many faces, old and new. [...I think I may be developing a crush, more on that later ;)] Graduation couldn't come soon enough. I recognized no one. I'm getting old in these streets, not old for the Earth though. ((Knocked Up reference. Lol)) The running theme of the comedy show was college was meant to be fun and academically demanding. There is no room for a relationship. I must say that I agree. Relationships take work and so does college. Something is bound to get left behind. ..probably someones heart. Had this been last year, I would have shared my thirst for a significant other. But after a long year with sprinkled with many a guy, I must admit that I'm not ready. I'm not ready to make such a commitment. When I get in a relationship, I want to be in a relationship. Right now, I want a guy who simply wants to take me out on a date. Whatever happened to courting?! ((I think I've been making it too easy for guys. It was fun, sexy, and what I wanted Now I want to be more of a challenge. A few slick text messages aren't going to be enough.))

Come harder this won't be easy. Don't doubt yourself. Trust me you need me.--B*

According to my friend, KL, we are apart of a different generation where marriage is a joke and baby's having babies has become the norm. ((sigh))

I've never been in a relationship and I don't think my last year of undergrad is going to be my saving grace. Relationships take work and lets be honest I'm barely keeping up with my friends. So adding a boyfriend (another person's feelings I have care about and what not) into the mix...I'm spent just thinking about it. Don't get me wrong, as the quarter winds down, I have more time on my hands and I would love to fill it with a male counterpart (preferably 6 feet tall, handsome, intelligent, and will respect that Grey's Anatomy is me time)). It's cuffing season and on these cold winter nights, I think I want to participate. Lol.

I write all of this to say, most of my friends who are in relationships aren't happy. I'm all about peace of mind and if you are in any way shape or form interfering with it, you have to go. *shrugs* I feel like I'm rambling. But after laughing at relationship woes and then seeing it first hand. I have some things on my mind. If a person is not making you happy then something needs to be done. You either leave or you stay. There is no gray area here. Deal with it or move on. Period.

But sometimes things really aren't that clear cut.

Girl moment:*Do you I ever cross your mind...anytime? (Brian McKnight)* I think about him throughout my day. Hoping that I run into him as I walk to class. Hoping that when my phone vibrates it will be him Just hoping that for once hope will be on my side

Ok I'm back. I had to get that soft *ish out though. This life I lead is a blessed one but baybee sometimes I just have to deep sigh. That's all I got for now. I'm taking these old bones to bed. :)