Easy, it is not.

4 hours worth of a standardized exam was taken today. Chile....my head is still reeling.

My scores were so so....didn't hit my goal score. I'm retaking in the winter.....only to realize that some schools won't consider the January score. >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Including my future Alma mater>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
I promptly sent an email to the Pharm D coordinator with my concern
only to realize that some other person is in charge of the admissions process>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

*wipes away thug tears*

My life is flashing before my eyes. I'm nervous. What if I don't get it in.....anywhere? This happened to my friend last year. She didn't get into any of the 5 schools that she applied to. What if I don't get in? I really contemplated this a few hours ago. I would simply take a year off, work, save money, and apply again. I don't have time for these reindeer games. I have one goal: I want to be a bilingual pharmacist. I will do whatever it takes. I've even emailed one of the higher ups at my job because I found out he is on the panel that looks at Pharm D applications. I also emailed him with questions about this new translator device that my store is testing. Clearly the fact that he is on the panel was my motivation. No shame. Your girl needs to get in there, like swimwear. My personal statement needs to be written. Why has that been so hard to write? Maybe because my life is hanging in the balance? I can't call it. I hope to have it written tonight. Or by Sunday. Perhaps I need more time. Procrastination is the devil.

On the bright side, I still have a job. I passed the Emily's Law exam ;-)
This was a small victory that I needed on the board.

Have you ever wanted something so badly you can taste it?
(I'm pretty certain I wrote that exact same sentence in last week's post or I said that to one of my friends. Aye that's where my life is at right now *shrugs*)

I see more study sessions, late nights, and note cards in my future. No one ever said this was gonna be easy...

P.S. these next few hours or days, there will be a posting frenzy. Finally have some time to write. Funny how can write these posts and not my personal statement. My priorities are so straight.  Anywho, enjoy these posts while they last.....the 1st quarter of my last year starts in a week....Yall know I'm trying to get into pharmacy school. See what I did there?
Word.
Speak Life.
 PS This made me chuckle.....