la la land and around the mulberry bush....

These past few days have been something to say the least.
I realize that I applied to a few out of state schools
but I don't think I actually thought about the the possibility of moving.
Chile.
life be happening.
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Not gonna lie, I'm kinda in la la land. ;-)
But........

Maybe its all in my head.

You tell your friends about a new guy and they are all "Im so excited you're excited, I'm so happy for you, this is good for you, this is so cute, Thank God he isn't greek, he could be the one, don't block your blessing, at least one of us needs to get a boyfriend, I hope this works out for you, when's the second date...."
First of all, I'm still wrapping my head around the fact that my bestie told me I drop the ball when it comes to men. She said that my "I don't care" attitude comes off as not interested when the guy has shown interest. SAY WHAT??! I didn't know I had an "idgaf" attitude. I do care. I do care. I do care. She said that I don't express interest soon enough. <<< Friends will get you all thee way together, won't they?
....then dinner happened.

As I attempt to normalize an event that isn't quite so normal for my life.....
My own insecurities compounded with the excitement/comments/questions/concerns of my friends isn't a good look.
In other aspects of my life, I'm miss know it all. I pretty much have an answer for errything. That's what my mama would say ;-)
But when it comes to guys.....I'm not so sure. I'm not miss know it all. Don't get me wrong, I have my moments.  I be pullin'em.
I'm a little freaked out.
I feel a little out of sorts.
Hmmm
I feel like I'm rambling....
insecurities ain't sh*t.