Four years of college and we have spent so much time trying not to get too attached or caught up all the while hoping that one of these days Prince Charming would appear. (Or maybe that was just me?!) As I try to navigate my different relationships with guys, it's getting harder and harder to maintain the emotional distance that I have attempted to build. But when will it be okay to place my heart on my sleeve?! From where I sit, the day is not coming anytime soon. I'm not sure how I feel about that?! Society has socialized men and women in a way that I feel leave women with the shorter end of the stick. In this world of double standards and outrageous expectations, I'm spent.
What's a girl to do?!
My head is supposed to be in my books because we all know that is my main focus. I agree wholeheartedly. Classes are about to start in a week...a balance must be found. But is there room for my classes, a job, friends, my mommie, and my conflicting emotions?! Honestly, I do not know. Something has got to give right? Well since it won't be my friends, my classes, my job, or my mommie, that leaves my conflicting emotions on the cutting room floor.
What is a girl to do? I think you told me the answer just now. Continue working on it, you never stop evaluating, choosing, keeping, and cutting! Even if you were married you'd still have to choose to work on the relationship and be with him everyday! Such is the life!
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