My Excuse is That I'm Young (10 of 10)

Do you think he likes you?
she asks with such a loaded innocence
that made me stop my thoughts
and look in her direction
I can't call it
nor do I care to know
my response slipped
out of me smoothly
cool to the touch
see this time I won't trip on my feelings
this time I won't hang my insecurities on his bed post
this time I will look into his eyes
and see me
not us
this time it will be all fun
and my excuse is that I'm young
I think at times Ive expected too much
they
 promising
 nothing
me
always
 wanting
 more
but he reminded me that I make the rules
so I'm just gonna ride this thang out
until the wheels come off
until something else
new and shiny catches my eye
until his jokes are no longer funny
my excuse is that I'm young
this life
I only have one
sometimes you gotta indulge