Deemed Unfit

"What's a girl to do?? What would you do??


this is text I got from one of the besties and for the first time in a long time....I didn't have a witty, all knowing response. Lol
Instead all I had to give her were my memories of what may have been to make her understand at this juncture I am ill equipped for advice.
Why?
Well because....
girl meets boy
girl likes boy
boy disappears
girl is confused
Yes that's pretty much what happened in the abridged version of my life.
How can I give advice to a friend, when I'm still holding on to something that may have not been there in the first place but I think was there, that I hope was there, that I'm pretty sure was there????

Do you see all of that confusion???? It's exhausting and yet I find myself there day in and day out..
Like a bad habit
I can't shake him
Like something that sticky that won't go away
Well let's be honest
I haven't tried to shake or blow (did I giggle? yes I did)

So I ask myself, "What's a girl to do?"

My answer: I'm not quite sure. I'm gonna continue to distract myself until I find the energy to examine the whys and the why not's of Disappearing Act (this is what I shall call him for now. Lol)

Is it avoidance? I can't call it.... *shrugs*
So what about my bestie and her situation. She's still confused.
We'll be confused together.

I mean that's all I can offer
It's something, right?!