and the text said.....

A few days ago, I got a picture message from a friend in his graduation glory from his masters program. He told me about his plans to move to Georgia for his new job.
Me: Fancy :-)
Him: Prepping for my wife (you) Lol
Me: Where in Georgia will you (we) be living?
The rest of those details are irrelevant.

*Please note: my response sans an "LOL"....yall just sit with that*

 Lemme go ahead and purchase that webcam so I can skype my boo in Georgia skype my girls to discuss.



Today's text from my bestie:
"Can I just get a man? Lol. Like I need a sign from God. Anything? Okay I'm done"

....that's all I'm saying.




Was my sign already shown to me?
*Looks at God*

An update of sorts ;-)

today is graduation.
another graduation that is not my own.
((sigh))
I'm excited for my friends and their futures
as I lay the groundwork for mine.
It's a conflicting feel nonetheless
I was gonna say that I can't wait for my graduation
but my mother would quickly say,
"Don't rush time"
and she's right.
The end of my undergraduate career is getting closer.
I will enjoy every demanding minute of it. ((remind me of this when I'm knee deep in assignments))
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Money can't buy happiness. <<<the person who said this never experienced being "the broke college student" I'm convinced my life would be better if I just had a little bit more money.
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drunken nights with friends: dollar shots and a pomegranate  martini [$13 give or take]
realizing you didn't put your scarf on the night before [priceless]
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drama between friends is for the birds
I shall not be involved.
Friends, acquaintances, and boys....if you are not adding exponentially to my happiness quotient....then anticipate a speedy removal.  *shrugs*
Nothing in particular happened to spark the last statement. Lol. I just wanted to put it in writing. The weather is getting warmer and I anticipate recklessness.....I BET IT AINT ME>>>

An update of sorts

Excited girls really do silly things.
I was talking to one of my male friends last night about school and what not. But in the midst of that I just spilled my guts. (Apparently I have to talk about things in order to process things...*things we already knew*).  At the end of the conversation, K* said, "Don't sweat this" <<Simple, right? It clicked....I don't know how to NOT sweat it because there's got to be a reason. It just doesn't make sense. I was sappy (see previous post) now I'm annoyed. I'm currently staring in my own episode of He's Just Not that Into You. Am I invisible?! Can you see me?! Ignoring tweets though....oh okay! Did I do something?! ! I can't call it.  My batteries are drained. Dazed and confused.But I can't give this anymore energy. It was so much fun in my head. ;-)
Life comes as you fast.
Jay-Z said it best: on to the next one *nods head in agreement*
No more sappy posts.
I'm soooooooo incredibly over all of these emotions and sh*t.
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on another note, my friend reasoned that we loved the same love song because we are ready to give our hearts away. Chile....
My response: Too deep for the intro ( a J. Cole song) .It was too deep and too on point for the moment. I refused to entertain it.
But I think she's right. Is this something that I wear on my sleeve?! Can this be picked up on?!

Once again I can't call it and I'm not gonna worry about it ;-) 

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It's Week 10. It's crunch time. I'm behind in my classes.....why?! Life happened. I had two quizzes, two exams, and an annotated bibliography due last week. I'm pooped. Now this week I have to start two research papers, catch up on Biochem, and study for my final that is on Wednesday. O_o I know in the end it will all come together. It always does.

Who she be??!

I have been a ball of incoherent emotions lately.
Who have I become?!
In the words of Carrie Bradshaw, "If I met me now, I wouldn't even know me"
I allowed my emotions to be turned inside out
by someone who doesn't even know.
*blankstare and side eye to me*
....like I said,
Who have I become?
You like and you learn, right?!
Hope is a double edged sword
that I'm tired of holding onto
I'm spent
Hope has worn me out
but then I remind myself,
Never expect anything from someone who promised you nothing. ((wise words))
So I have gathered myself and my things
licking my wounds
when we meet again
I'll be singing a different tune
:-)

The List That Never Ends.

These to do lists I've been making have been epic.

Too long to fathom and yet I continue to write them, always mumbling that today will be the day I cross everything off....

Even I don't believe me.

These lists keep me organized, give me comfort, and my make head hurt. O_o

I gotta keep writing them. It's only right.

Life these days is pretty uneventful. I kinda like it. But then in those quiet moments, I'm desperate for something to happen, screaming for other voices to fill my thoughts besides my own, and wanting more than what I'm getting. ((deep sigh))

But there are assignments to be completed, dishes to

be washed, texts/phone to be returned, and a laundry list of other things to do. [see what I did there?]

During our educational journey, we are told that anything other than classes, powerpoints, or exams are a distraction. To some degree, I understand. HOWEVER, a distraction or two never hurt anyone.

Right?

Right?

This is the kind of distraction I would fully support, sign up for, and participate in.

Tall, handsome, intelligent, has a way with words, and a food lover

However this pretty much sums up my distractions>>>> "Eff not having an cute boy to be interested in. Ugh".--Little Miss Sunshine

Three's a crowd.

***Last night I went out for my friend's birthday 22nd birthday and her goal of the night was to get shwasted. Goal was met. But I'm pretty sure she won't be drinking alcohol again for at least six months. Oops. Lol***

During this birthday celebration we met a lot of guys. However some of them were..? How can I put this nicely?.....they left nothing to be desired. I could smell their insecurity. It was overwhelming.

Insecurity was the third wheel and I didn't like it all. Why are you talking to me even though you've expressed interest in talking to one of my friends?? More importantly why are you sprinkling comments about how beautiful my smile is throughout the conversation while again wanting to talk to my friend??? Sir I don't wantchu and neither does my friend. I am not a middle man. The same guy asked if my other friend was stuck up. Just because a girl is not paying you any attention does not mean she's stuck up. She doesn't want to be bothered with your insecure behind. I was sooo drained.

The only thing worse than a man without self esteem is what I like to call "the thirstbucket" Being persistant and being thirsty are two different things. If I say, I'm not kicking it because my drunk friend needs my attention and you still proceed to get in where you fit in......

GIFSoup

.....chile please. ((Please note: after a message or two back forth, he finally got the picture. Lol))

An insecure man is something I can't condone and/or support.

Tale of Two Crushes

The guy I like is unavailable.

I haven't talked to him in months

....as I write this it sounds as if its one of those I like him/he doesn't like me kind of thing. Don't worry it's not. :)

The other guy I like is an a*hole whose life is always at a crossroads. Apparently, life is hard.

On the flip side, a guy at my job has expressed interest and I'm not really impressed.

• He doesn't have a phone or a car. But he does have a son....*blankstare*

He wants to take me on a lunch date. (how is he gonna get there? how is he gonna tell me he's running late? #questions) Here's the thing: the guy that has expressed interest doesn't do it for me. Don't get me wrong, the kid has a smile that is to die for. (melts) But that's where it begins and ends. I told him that I wasn't looking for a relationship (Lies told on FB) which is something that he is looking for. I don't know what to do about him.

But I digress, the point of the post is: why do we (me + other women) pine away after guys who are "unavailable" for whatever reason but are quick to throw a blankstare at the guy who is present?? #dilemmas

I should be excited about about the guy at my job right? He's told me he's liked me. He's commented on my beauty. He wants to take me out to a place where there are witnesses. My breath doesn't escape when I see him. The butterflies don't move. My knees aren't weak. <---this is how I know that I don't like, like him. But the mere mention of the two aforementioned guys....((deep sigh))

What's a girl to do??!