what have i done.

Once I graduate on June 10th,2012, I will feel like I have accomplished something.
By then, I will be 24 years young and know if I got into pharmacy school.
They say getting in is half the battle.
They is right.
Just taking it day by day
that's all I have to give
With each assignment,
I know that I'm one step closer to
GRADUATION
And on that day, I will give a shout.
Until then,
I will complain about not having enough money or enough time in the day
I will spend countless hours downloading music  ((SchoolBoy Q| My Hating Joint)) when I should be studying
I will calculate my grades over and over again ......"so how many points do I need to get....?"
I will envy my two friends who have already been accepted into pharmacy school
I will become even greener with envy when my friend tells me he didn't even study for the pharmacology exam and still received a better grade than I did -_____-
I will workout three days a week and enjoy every minute of it
I will attempt to not to succumb to my quarter life crisis
In other words,
I will try not to go completely crazy.

I will graduate.

Oh You Know...

Just wanted to check in and what not! Also wanted to share some of my quarterly goals. Once it's in writing, there's no denying it. Accountability at its best. ;-)

730am classes were created by the Devil himself. I'm sure of it.
I have decided to join the Spanish Conversation Club. Why didn't I join this sooner I will never know!! I'm also reading two to three articles that are written in entirely in Espanol everyday.
Since a few of my pharmacy classes are online (shimmies and shakes a la B.Scott), I will be back in the GYM. First time since I fractured my foot. Chile.....I had to buy a black dress for this event >>> The Women's Book Launch Party and I had to go up a size. *real tears* I will admit it was mostly because of my broad shoulders but still. I almost had a nervous breakdown in Targets.
Grey's Anatomy is BACK. My world is complete. I don't have cable but I do get ABC. All of my shows come on ABC....Modern Family, Happy Endings, and Pan Am!! *Looks at God*
PCAT studying starts again. I have another opportunity. Let's be great.
My new flat iron is pink. I love she.
People who speak entirely too loud for the sake of people overhearing their nonsense make my blood boil. This girl in my class was going on and on about how she left her blow dryer and favorite pair of jeans at her mothers house. MA'AM.....O_o .....the only person that cares is the girl sitting next to you. Why must you scream????
No guys in sight or on my mind. They have been replaced with homework and the like. Out of sight, out of mind is how I play it until

::unicorns::

Mediumest Loser #2

"Dropping ten pounds preparing summer" ---Drake

Second Week into Operation Birthday Body!! Working out has become second nature...just another moment in my day. ;-) The workouts are tough but I know the results are gonna be great!! Right now this picture is my desktop *Looks down*

Now if Halle Berry isn't motivation...I don't know what is. She's 44 years old and her body is BANGING. I am not mad but baybee when I'm on that elliptical atempting to sweat the pounds away I think about her and Beyonce's resident four pack (it's not quite a six pack. #noshade)

So the weigh in has been changed from this week to next week. I gotta step it up next week. I wanna see different numbers on the scale. I did crack today ((Doritos and twix)) *wall slide* But I'm pretty sure it's linked to PMS and ranging hormones. But no worries I worked it off ;-) I started a food diary. Yes I'm documenting every morsel of food that hits these lips. I'm not kidding about getting in shape. I know how to workout but I love to eat. ((I'm convinced I was fat and happy or just  a socialite with a fast metabolism in my past life)) Now all I need to make these workouts more tolerable is an ipod. Yes I'm still complaining about it. I actually lost it around this time last year. It's an anniversary of sorts. Lol. >>>Why haven't you gotten a new one by now? *currently thinking of ways to be an adult of justifying purchasing an electronic device in light of all of the other things that I need. Key word: Need.* Anywho, the workouts must go on. They will :-)

Signed,

Thunder Thighs 

Mediumest Loser #1

Day 2 of being back in the gym!! After a month of fast food and no exercise, I was sure that my workout was going to be a struggle. But it wasn't!! I still got it. Tomorrow I'm kicking the cardio up a notch!! I've decided to give up pasta and all of its goodness. I love pasta and all that it stands for but my thighs and excess stomach flab feel the opposite. Pasta I will miss you.....*sobs and what not* I was going to give up carbs as a whole... but I couldn't let go of oatmeal for breakfast!!
I'm in my early twenties and I want my body to reflect that. ;-)

I've got about a month to get my body ready for my 23rd birthday!!! ((I like goals))

No pasta, no fried foods, more veggies/fruits, more cardio, and MORE SLEEP!!!! 

Mediumest Loser: The Entry

finals are Ooooovvverrr! What have I been doing?! SLEEPING!! Let me tell you: it feels great to do absolutely nothing!! Today is St. Patty's day and my friends are on campus partying it up! No worries, round 2 will commence tomorrow and Saturday :-)

[On to the post]

Yesterday the madre and I went shopping. Let me back it up......so when the quarter started I was on this working out tip. I stayed in the gym. I was ON IT. Then the second round of midterms hit. I had an annotated bibliography due, a presentation, a quiz, and other random things to complete. I started eating fast food and my time spent at the gym began to dwindle. S M H. So now three weeks or so later I find myself shopping with my mommie. I was an ill fitting jean away from falling out in the back fitting room of TJ Maxx. 

Thunder thighs and fluorescent lights don't mix. 

RT @sistertoldja There's like 15 pounds standing between me and greatness. I wish they had "The Mediumest Loser"

Needless to say, I quickly realized that I need to get back in the gym. So I'm saying it here now: March 20th,2011 I will be participating in my own version of the Mediumest Loser: Birthday Body Edition!! (The bday is in 43 days) Not sure how much weight I want to lose but I know what I want my body to look like. SLIM! Expect weekly/bi-weekly updates about the process. I'm excited. 

Somewhere in the Middle

I find myself reading this quote all the time lately:

"Oh, these roaring twenties. I have some wonderful and beautiful newness in a few places in my life, so I promise you that complaining is not all that I have to do. I just got the blues today. Holler if you hear me."

Sometimes this life is heavy on my shoulders! There are times I just wanna scream and then fall into a pool of my own tears. Life is hard. But then my mom calls me and reminds me what an amazing woman I am. Then everything becomes a little bit more manageable. Sometimes you have to be reminded that you are capable of the greatest things.

Can we talk about the newness?! It's so new I've offered one of my friends only the minimum details. Why?! Well when you tell people things, they ask you follow up questions during future conversations. They hold you accountable to these details because they want to know more. Right now, I'm not ready for all of that. I'm sitting on the edge of the proverbial pool, feet in the water, testing the temperature. Not quite ready to dive in yet. But the water feels nice so far. 

My friends are making moves.  One is moving to Miami. The others are graduating and going to their respective graduate schools. I am so happy for them ;-) There are moments when I want my last few quarters to go by quickly. The days seem to be dragging. As they talk about all the new decisions that must be made, that quickly changes. It's funny how time works. You spend your adolescent years wanting to get to college. You get to college and would give anything to go back to the days when the hardest,life altering decision was picking out a Homecoming dress.
Operation Look Better Naked has been derailed once again. When exams are near, I turn my time upside down only to accommodate studying. Eat.Study.Sleep. Everything else like laundry, working out, and my other classes get knocked off the list. I really need to stop doing that!

My life is wonderfully blessed, except for the fact that my thighs still rub together. ;-)

Look Better Naked #5

Biggest Loser: Cardio Max DVD is absolutely NO joke. Bob had me sweating like a pig! Like dripping sweat all in my eyes kind of workout. I weighed myself this morning. O_o ((Scales are the REAL weapons of mass destruction))

Let's just say I've got some massive work to do.

I've started doing 100 crunches before bed. I've already done 100 today. Tonight I'll do another 100.

200 crunches total. I can't believe it....this belly flab needs to go. Although I probably won't be going anywhere for spring break, my body can look like it's going to frolic in the black sands of Fiji. #blackhistorymonth :)